You Matter, Keep Going

Part of the reason that I want to help people so badly is because I know what it feels like to struggle. I know what it feels like to feel alone, like you don’t matter, that no one really cares. I know what it feels like when life gets too hard and it feels like you can’t continue. When you don’t have the strength or energy to keep going, to keep fighting. I know what it feels like to be alone with your thoughts. Negative thoughts that are so loud and so powerful that any other voice doesn’t stand a chance. I know what it feels like to be so frustrated with yourself that you just want it all to stop.

I know that feeling. I hate that feeling. And if you know that feeling too – I see you, you are not alone and I’m glad you’re still here.

I always like to remind people to give others grace because you never know what someone is going through. I tell people that out of my own experience. I tend to hide my real feelings. I’ve always been one to want to figure it out on my own and hate asking for help. Especially if the help that I needed would be so personal. The negative thoughts that I used to experience ate me up inside.

I often wanted to die because I didn’t want to experience those feelings anymore. There were several instances where I grabbed scissors wanting to cut myself, but I never could. I wanted release from the pain I was dealing with, but I was afraid of any consequences if someone found out. I’m one of the lucky ones that never acted on my darkest thoughts.

I’m so saddened by the people that weren’t so lucky.

Life is really freakin hard sometimes. And it’s really easy to feel down about everything that you have going on. But I think that living life is pretty worth it. I think that if you are here, there has got to be a reason. I hope that even when you are struggling, that you fight for yourself to find out why you’re here and how to make the most out of the life that you have.

As always, I’m sharing this because I hope my story helps someone. I truly want people to be happy, to love themselves, and to embrace everything about life.

Dark moments are temporary, suicide is permanent. If you are having suicidal thoughts, please reach out to someone. You are important, you are loved and you are not alone.

Here are some resources to help yourself or someone you love:

We need you to keep going. We need YOU in this world.